Motivation

Despite my stress levels being through the roof, I had an exciting day. First, my close college friend BP and I finally booked our tickets for Puerto Rico! It'll be a nice getaway for both of us and fun to do another one of our girls' trips.

Then, the wonderful boyfriend sent me the sweetest card. I love getting mail and especially the kind with such nice notes inside. :) Normally my mail box just sits empty day after day.

As if the card wasn't enough, the wonderful B also had flowers sent to me to keep me going through the next week of stress. Awwwww. Of course the girls in the leasing office were admiring them and didn't bother to call me so I had to track them down. But they are lovely and fill my apartment with the perfume of lilies.

I suppose I now have some incentive to crank through these papers. I don't know why my motivation levels are SO LOW, but I plan to pull it together, focus and just trudge through one page at a time, one word at a time.

Thanks for nothing

I'm having a rough week and it's only Tuesday. Apartment stuff blows. School blows. Moving blows. To-do lists blow. Long distance blows. Emotional meltdowns blow. Rain blows. Traffic blows. Austin drivers blow. And to top it all off, a big thank you to Craigslist for amassing the biggest bunch of flakes in the world. Why waste my effing time waiting around for you? Annoying! And the last thing I needed today.

More ranting to come until at least May 6.

Only in Austin

I took a break with friends yesterday and went to Eeyore's Birthday Party. It actually has nothing to do with his birthday, but it's a hippy fest in the middle of Austin's Pease Park. We had fun people-watching and enjoying a warm Austin spring day. For a minute I felt like I was back in Berkeley amongst people who just wanted to have fun and celebrate life.

Afterward, we stopped at Sonic for drinks and then I found a wad of cash that was hidden in my first aid kit. Always a nice surprise. What an awesome day!

Some photos below:

Frustrated

Continuing in my own little Twittery world...why do guys always stick up for people they feel loyal to no matter what that person does (or fails to do)?

Disappointed

Yeah, that's how I feel about this whole apartment search. No details to share here, just my version of a Twitter update I guess.

I will survive

Finding a place to live in NYC is like going through the 5 stages of grief: denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and finally, acceptance.

• Denial (this isn't happening to me!)
  
• Anger (why is this happening to me?)
  
• Bargaining (I promise I'll be a better person if...)
  
• Depression (I don't care anymore)
  
• Acceptance (I'm ready for whatever comes)

I think I'm entering the depression stage -- I'm not really depressed, but I really don't care anymore. It's too stressful for both of us and I feel bad that I can only do so much from 1,700 miles away. B is probably still in the bargaining stage, but I suspect he'll move into depression pretty quickly after a few more apartment visits. We're both ready to find a place and be done with the shadiness of NYC real estate!

If we get through the apartment hunting process it'll be a miracle!!!

Hiatus

What a weekend! I had so much fun catching up with friends, but I didn't start working until 10:30pm on Sunday night. Not a good start to the week! So I am here to say that I need to and will FOCUS. Otherwise I will be one Miss Crankypants!